Sunday, January 5, 2014


I think my brain has frozen over..... I just can't seen to able to write anything.
Any time I pick up the pen, I'm just like, what the hell! Dammit. I just want to write and I can't And its suffocating me.
Its like I'm just waiting to go I'm just going to burst at any moment!
But I don't wanna! I want to write like I used to.
But I can't. God dammit!
This writers block....not a fan of it. Bleh!
Its like I'm holding my breath and can't seem to let go even though I desperately want to. Arggghhhh! me!
That felt good.
Letting off of some steam, and all.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Hole in My Pocket

There's a hole in
my pocket.
Its a sweet
cool thing,
there's a hole in
my pocket,
it lets me do my thing.
I have an itch at
my thigh,
didn't know
how to get it,
but now
I'ma lucky,
coz there's
a hole in my pocket.
I put my
finger through it,
and wiggle ,
it around
its a sweet,
cool thing,
hole in my pocket.
Its my own
secret door,
like in
the victorian era,
its makes me
feel so cool,
this hole in my

Tuesday, March 26, 2013


The chair creaks
the sound echoes
in the silence of the room.
The sound of
my pen
scratching away
at the paper
is loud,
and daunting.
Word after word
I write
and word after word
I cut,
nothing seems good.
Restless, I feel,
the words locked
inside of me.
Wanting to get out,
but not being able
to do so.
Hidden from me,
my words abandon me
in this time
of need.
Silence surrounds me,
suffocating me,
strangelling me.
Like a noose
around my neck,
tightening with
every passing minute.
I scramble for
and my words.
I feel like a
ticking bomb,
waiting to explode,
at any moment.
But still they hide,
beneath their hidden perch.
My words, oh words,
where have you gone?
Come back to me,
I promise
to fully pay my respects to you, and
I will
pay my dues to you.
Just come back.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013


you waited too long,
and now its too late.
the time is up,
the countdown is over,
the finish line is in sight,
the end is near.
like pulling
a rug from
underneath me,
you took me
by surprise.
unsure of my footing,
the ground is wobbly
beneath me.
like standing on
the edge of a
one slip
I fall.
into the looming
but I will
find my
and i will be stable
and i will take
that leap
and fly down,
and i will swim
to the

Monday, March 18, 2013

Her Corner

There she stands
at a street
In fish-net stockings
a miniskirt
and a dirty white tank
showing off
months of grime.
Her fingers
hold a smoke,
though it
doesn't get to her
dry lips.
When I pass by,
her lips form
into a teasing,
and what she hopes to be
a flirty smirk.
But it doesn't reach her eyes,
her eyes
tell a different story.
Heavy and dull
they tell her story
because everyone's got one.
There are circles under them,
dark purple,
they speak of long
and sleepless nights.
Her hair fall
and her body thin,
her clothes
barely holding up on her
The street is
but I watch her.
Now that no one's here,
she throws away
her smoke
and her shoulders
Now that the street
is empty,
I watch
two tears fall
on her dirty tank,
soaking the cloth.
Someone comes up
and she stands
no sing of tears
except of the two dots
on her dirty
Slowly, she walks with him,
back straight
into the light of the
But her eyes
lose their light
and I watch her
until she disappears
around another corner.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Yearning To Be An Adult

As a kid,
you wonder
how to be an adult
to talk
to walk
to behave like them
is one of our favorite pastimes.
We never get enough
of it.
We anticipate 
the day when we
finally turn to adults.
When we get to do
what we want.
Freedom, no care
and superiority
all these
glittered like gems 
in our childish eyes.
Waiting for us to
grab them
and enjoy them.
But I guess
the saying
"all that glitters is not gold"
is very much true.
It really isn't what
we had thought it out be.
What we had 
seen as glittering gems,
was nothing but,
shiny rock.
Rocks that were
buried underneath 
countless layers of
responsibility, fears,
doubts, insecurities
and judgment.
That by the time 
we even get to the
shiny rocks
they have already
lost their shine
and are brittle
After having born
such burden.
I guess, 
being an adult is not
all its made out to be.
For I long for the
that I wasted 
yearning to be an adult.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Black Hole

seems lost,
like a fog,
it settles around me.
Thick and unforgiving,
making my sight
Don't know
which path I have taken,
Don't remember
the path I had taken
Reality and fantasy
Dream and nightmare
Don't know
one from the other
Merging into each other
like a complicated maze
from which
the key is hidden from me
to its escape.
Like a black hole
this feeling
sicks me in
till there is no more to take
and no more to give.