Anger

It simmers inside me
never blowing out,
yet never receding
like a dormant volcano it waits
for the final nail to my coffin
waits,
for me to break, waits,
for me to finally give in to it,
to finally open the door of its cage
like a balloon, its keeps blowing and blowing
till I can keep it no more
and like a balloon only
I will burst
and then, I don't think
even God itself could stop me
from controlling it back

PHOENIX

A phoenix
rises out of the ashes
that consumes her, only to be burned again
Like a phoenix, I will rise again
out of the fire that consumes me
only to be consumed by it again
submitting myself to it
because, I don't have any choice
becuase my choice was my made when I heard his name!
A drug, an antidote
Bad or good
Call it whatever you want it
I don't care
All I care, All I want is
to submit myself  fully to it
No matter the consequence
My devotion to him
is the only thing I can show
even though he is probably
unaware of even my existence
and sitting thousands of miles away
I still don't care
but like a phoenix
I will be consumed in this again and again
only to be burned again and again
but I will rise
Soon, like a phoenix.